1. |
the-recluse (poem)
02:47
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(I grew up feeling like) when I'm alone I'm at my loneliest
Until I made friends, now I feel even lonelier
Before that, I was just alone in my home
But friends made me feel so alone in the world, with no hope.
Will I ever find anybody who can understand?
Will I always be just a therapist to my friends?
It's loneliness in company, accompanied by crowded thoughts
Now I seek God for direction because LATELY I'm kinda lost
Inside the house a lot
(Despising school a lot)
Revising life because I don't want an office spot
(I hate 'the box')
To the power of X, roman numerals
Solving rubrics cubes in a 6 x 8 cubicle
Type as usual, breaking after fixed intervals
Feeling like I'm at school again, no.
I'd rather fly to the sun with wax wings
Than to witness another birth that will never be happy
The ghosts that haunt me subliminally warn me
They say I can be like Casper when I die, If only I
Allow my mind to be paralyzed by my dreams
That for as long as I'm stranded on earth, I should live like the wind
Look at how it moves the trees without moving them
Look at how they sway........
(Audio: KhonazZz & Dominic)
"What you mean, nigga? (Who you talking to?)
Forest [Cry] bruh (Who's that?)
Amo bruh, nigga what you mean bruh? Nigga what song is this bruh?
Do I know it nigga? Damn nigga (Tell him to come through dawg)
What? Nigga, he likes being alone. He likes his own space bruh.
[Transition]
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2. |
sombre-memories
03:34
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[Intro]
'cause she different, ou
yeah, aye
[Verse 1]
6am
my bus arrived (aye)
i grab a seat
i woke up at 5
i'm sleep deprived
'Beast' realizes that i didn't eat
i get to school at 7:00 sharp
i greet half the squad, aint-
greet the other half talkin' bout yesterdays soccer game
it's 7:15 and that's the time that she normally arrives
'cause she lives near the school so she takes a walk as well as her time
like she took her time to realize that i really like her
she's the type i could really wife but-
it's 7:20
today she's 5 minutes late
i asked her why with my phone in hand
she just had a little delay
it's hard enough to even concentrate
so i reach over for a hug
and it's warm like the love
i had imagined for us
[Chorus] x2
(you're the best thing in my life)
I wish I was not alive right now
(you're the best thing in my life)
You're the best thing in my life right now
(i don't like to, i don't like, i don't like to, i don't like)
[Verse 2]
eish
she tells me vaguely what i need to hear
about how they broke up 'cause he did nothing
never really there.. or something
i didn't really listen after i heard broke up
'cause i immediately started thinking of the possibilities for both of us
she snap her finger, "nigga focus!" (huh?)
i tell her that i'm deeply sorry,
but i really ain't, i hope she's over him
and it seem like she is 'cause she doesn't seem that sad uh
but then again this chick always been a good actress
always been a good actress
2pm
she say she used to slit her wrist, sloppy
i comfort her
i tell her she don't deserve any of this
but obvious
the comforting turns into compliments
the compliments turn into flirting
what do i even think i'm doing?
how could i picture this working?
[Chorus] x2
(you're the best thing in my life)
I wish I was not alive right now
(you're the best thing in my life)
You're the best thing in my life right now
(i don't like to, i don't like, i don't like to, i don't like)
[Outro]
i did not expect what came next x6
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3. |
lately
03:18
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Intro
na na na na na na
[Chorus]
lately i can't sleep, but i can't get up
lately i can't eat and i hate being bothered
lately i hate me 'cause i know you hate me too
lately, lately, i'm breaking down
lately i can't sleep, but i can't get up (can't get up)
lately i can't eat and i hate being bothered (hate being bothered)
lately i hate me 'cause i know you hate me too
[Verse]
life for me is just anxiety
hitting all at once in it's variety
contemplating losing my sobriety
hate society
they just lie to me
especially those at the side of me
i'll take a bad friend over a fake any day
i never had a give and take
loneliness is written all up on his face anyway
sick of existence
getting up is a mission when you're just a pivot in the system
tell me what is a man without a soul
i don't feel at home when i'm back at home
always asking for time alone
when that's all i've had even when i'm not
can't forgive so i cuss her out
in front of homies when i still cared a lot
[Bridge]
i owe a lot of you apologies
i don't even know what's wrong with me
thoughts creeping all the time
lost when i'm in my mind
[Chorus]
lately i can't sleep, but i can't get up
lately i can't eat and i hate being bothered
lately i hate me 'cause i know you hate me too (i can't sleep, i can't get up)
lately, lately, i'm breaking down
lately i can't sleep, but i can't get up (can't get up)
lately i can't eat and i hate being bothered (hate being bothered)
lately i hate me 'cause i know you hate me too
[Outro]
yeah i don't get it
you found me down
pick me up
love me now
yeah i don't get it
you found me down
pick me up
you touch me, you touch me
love me now
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4. |
lost
02:23
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[Chorus]
look he don't know the reason for life
that's why he wanna die
but i don't wanna leave her tonight
tears up in your eyes
what will ever be of this life?
will i ever fly?
look i don't know
i don't know
i don't know
[Verse]
highly doubt that i look like i'm managing
but regardless i'll always tell you that i'll handle it
i do with the hope that you'll get the secret message
i do this 'cause i've never been the type for confessions
i'm on the outside, but i'm captive in my mind
by my dreams 'cause my patience is irrelevant to time
i'd rather be imprisoned by my state of my mind
and not the state, wait
i been tryna run my money up
i lost the race, wait
mother opt he stop his music so he contemplates, aye
he only contemplates
'cause forest is just really bad
bad at taking action
and i know that she really mad
mad at all my actions
mad because i move on fast
faster than my chances
a chance to rectify the past
a chance to blame depression
but that would be another lie
more of my deception
'cause i know that it's all my fault
i really do regret it
[Chorus]
look he don't know the reason for life
that's why he wanna die
but i don't wanna leave her tonight
tears up in your eyes
what will ever be of this life?
will i ever fly?
look i don't know
i don't know
i don't know
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5. |
this-time
02:35
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[Intro]
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
yeah (yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah)
[Chorus] x4
This time
I been waiting, know why
I been waiting all night
Waiting for you girl
(yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah)
This time
I been waiting all night
I been waiting all night
Waiting for you girl
(yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah)
[Bridge] x2
i don't mind
wish i had your time, i don't
baby it's all right
girl, i grew up on my own
yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
(This time
I been waiting all night
I been waiting all night
Waiting for you girl)
Sample: "Depression & Obsession" - XXXTENTACION
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Hi, I'm Forest. I'm a lizard from the sky who loves guitars and synths!
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